Feeling a bit alone today. I'm wondering if there are others here that can relate to what I'm feeling.

I hope that what I say doesn't offend anyone, that is not my intention at all. I guess I'm just feeling a bit envious of many of the other posters here. I don't want to and I certainly don't want to put anyone off.

I'm just wondering if there are any other people here who grew up in foster care and find themselves with out any family at all (good or bad)?

I know it may seem crazy to be a bit envious of those who have family ties, even if they are not good or healthy. I just wish that I had some. I feel like if I did have a family, that would at least come with connection to something bigger than myself. I would have someone with shared history and shared memories. I feel like it would be somewhere to go on holidays and special occasions-- even if it did end up with tense moments. I would at least have had someone to share the tense moments with. I would have someone who expected me to be there again sometime in spite of those tense moments.

I have tried to make my own family since becoming an adult. I have been married but was so clueless as to how to function in a family that inevitably my husband tucked tail and ran. It was more like we were never a family and I was just a visitor within his.

IDK, I'm really feeling inconsequential and disconnected. Really just wanting to know if anyone else relates.