My husband of almost 10 years just got up and told me to have the homeless shelter save me a place to stay because I'm going to need it. I have no idea what brought this on. Our "marriage" never really was good, but I never saw this coming. He has health problems and doesn't take care of himself, i.e. he's diabetic and eats chocolate hand over fist. It's a struggle to get vegetables down him. He also informed me that he hopes Obama care works out for me because he's taking me off his insurance. For so long I thought I was being too sensitive, denying that he is abusive. But it's crystal clear to me, he is emotionally unavailable and abusive. I am highly sensitive, but I believe he is abusive. So now I sit here not knowing what caused this uproar, not knowing where to go, what to do. It's -25C out right now and they are predicting it to get colder. I can't stop crying, I knew we weren't good but I thought we were at least status quo. My bad. Actually, I'd rather be on my own than in a loveless marriage, so if I can figure out what to do, I'm sure I will look back at this as a blessing in disguise. If I survive.
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"Loneliness and the feeling of being unwanted is the most terrible poverty" - Mother Teresa
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