Gender identity is on a sliding scale, there is nothing strange about how you feel. I'm straight but I love being who I am and dressing how I like! I'm heavily inspired by the visual kei style of dress, where the gender lines blur almost completely. I'm sorry to offer a biased (predisposition) view on this, and not anything mainstream... but I suppose it's just that I wish I would have had someone to speak to me about this earlier! I would really like to talk to you more about this subject if you are interested, since there is so much I have learned about gender identity that I think might help you. (No pressure) Either way, I hope that you can find what you need to make you happy. ^-^