Thank you all for your help. I'm failing miserably right now because my GAD is out of control. Nurses at the intake appointment witnessed that during a fire drill. Oops. Eh. Yeah, full-blown panic attack. Wish I could return to taking Wellbutrin. It helped a little but gave me inner ear difficulties and hallucinations. Doc said Chantix was out of the question because of my rage attacks and BPD. We're all in the process of trying to find a drug that, first, I haven't tried and, second, that will help me control my anxiety better. Once I get that taken care of then it will be easier for me to quit. Honestly, I knew that I needed to be hospitalized again but hospital environments terrify me. Home, in my dark, comfy room, isolated is the only place where I feel comfortable. Yeah, that's a whole 'nother (sorry) can of worms. We're going to get this straightened out. It has happened so many times that I've become a pro at seeking out proper treatment and going through the proper channels. I mentioned to the doc that I really really want to quit smoking and the center has a program for smokers to help them quit. Now I just have to wait until my next appointment, which is a few weeks from now.