I used dissociate all the time. When the emotional stress level would rise I would fade. Have you been under more stress lately? I have put a bunch of effort into learning how to let myself feel more where as before I was afraid to feel because I never really knew which feeling would overwhelm me so I just stuffed them all. Since working on it I find I rarely ever fade away now. I go fuzzy around the edges and become what the average person would simply call distracted but I no longer totally disconnect. When I was disconnected I would have the over powering need to hurt myself to prove that I still existed in this world.
Carrie

<font color=blue>If you have two dollars, spend one on bread and the other on flowers. The bread will feed your body and the flowers will feed your soul."--Arabic Saying