Hi everyone, thanks for your support...

After it was over I just felt miserable... physically ill... I don't want to move on, I want to go back in time and undo what happened to me... And knowing there's little stopping it from happening again just makes me feel worse... I just hate this feeling and wish it would stop...

I was told by a doctor that they ruled out PTSD, but I don't know why. I do have a history of psychosis, but my flashbacks are trauma related...