I am a crappy decision maker when it comes to career path. I normally have a slight difficulty making decisions, but recently it has gotten worse. I blame it on two things,1) I am getting older and have become more self- conscious in an environment where most of my peers are younger than me, resulting in self-doubt 2)after a psychotic relapse, my grey matter shrinked and I could not function as well I used to.
The thing that drives me most these days is after graduation I am going to find a decent job and support myself, or go to grad school,as it yields long term benefits. I feel like everyone around me has to judge me a little bit, I am 24,hasn't graduated college, when everyone around me who's my age are either working or had gone on to graduate/prof school. when people ask where I want to go after college, I end up picking out a random career that I am not too enthusiastic about, just to sound purpose-oriented.
The only thing that drives me is knowing that I am on my way to achieve independence. Now I feel crippled because I don't have a consistent passion for any profession. and I change my career choice every other day. This has made me unable to focus on any career path. I am a biology major, and somedays I'll feel confident enough to tackle Physician assistant school, some days I'll want a more spontaneous profession like journalism, PR and politics, and somedays I'll egg myself on for medical school by asking myself" what do you not have that makes you unable to go to med school?"The thing is I know it is not too late for anything, therefore I am almost always constantly going back and forth about which career to choose. I hate to think oh I shoulda done that. At a career counsel session, I believe that I am expected to at least know these things they are: do you want to get a job after graduation or do you want to go on to grad school. I am not even sure about that. Has it been torturous and exciting at the same time when it comes to picking a career path for any of y'all? Would love to hear some suggestions to put it in perspective for me. Is it a bad thing to have too many options?