Yesterday's outing with my coworkers was a bust. Everyone cancelled, so that was disappointing. I decided to go visit my grandma and I'm glad that I did.

I've been in denial over just how bad my depression has gotten. Case in point: today at work my friend in the department I used to work in came over and gave me a hug. I almost burst into tears. I'm also isolating, and making up excuses to not see my dad's side of the family. I told them I was sick last week, but there's another get together since Sunday so I'll probably have to show my face. I'm not looking forward to pretending that I'm okay. I'm so exhausted. My appointment with my doctor next week can't come soon enough.