Okay...sooooooooo...I just took a quiz on here and the results say that I am probably SEVERELY depressed. HELLO!!?? I KNOW that I am not feeling great and that I am at a pretty low point in my life, but, I actually thought that my responses would indicate, maybe, a LITTLE bit of depression not SEVERE depression. Hmmmmmm...
I have felt like dog doo doo since about the beginning of October and at times since then I felt as if I was barely hanging on by a thread. I was crying and crying everyday, felt like someone had punched me in the stomach and knocked the wind outta me and I lost MAD weight since then...like over 40 lbs. But, now I only cry maybe once a week, I feel, mostly like I have caught my breath and I actually get hungry about every other day!! So, if I am SEVERELY depressed now....what the FLUCK was I experiencing from October until just recently??
I have started seeing a counselor who has said that I probably have some kind of anxiety problem. Never looked at it that way. But, then I went on WebMD.com and looked up anxiety symptoms, and, yep, sure enough, that is what I am experiencing even today. They say that anxiety and depression sometimes overlap. Okay. Great to know. Anywayzzzzzzz...my counselor says that I should make an appointment with my MD and get an Rx for something. I can only WISH that there is a magical pill or elixer that can take this anguish from me and quell my queezy uneasy feelings. This is not something I want to get used to. Not like I am seeking some "happy" pill, just want this feeling of dread to dissipate. Sooooooooo...what kind of pill does that? What would a doctor prescribe? And, do they work? Or do the meds just mask the symptoms I have described and replace them with...dry mouth, upset stomach, etc. etc. and other unsuitable side affects?
Do I sound angry? Geeze...sorry folks. This is just very frustrating. The people in my life say that I am just looking at everything from a negative standpoint. That my negativity creates the negativity in my life. Vicious cycle. Whatever. I understand the concept of creating your own reality, but, one must also accept the reality of the situation as well. Correct? I mean, you can't ever hope to get past this without accepting it for what it is. Right? I mean, sheez...I have been feeling like this since early October and have TRIED to think positive and create a different reality, but, the reality is....I'M DEPRESSED!!
Can anyone make ANY sense of this for me? Thanks for reading this and thanks in advance for any insight someone might have for me.
PEACE!