I'm new to this forum and posting in forums all together, I was only diagnosed with BPD a few months ago so everything is kind of up in the air and I feel like I'm floating and I'm stuck and I can't do anything to change my circumstances.but I have many other acronyms GAD, MDD,CPTSD,BPD and panic attacks. I'm having the (imagined)"biggest" problem due to my Bestie who has pretty much dumped me for a new boyfriend (who has been our friend for 12 years) so I hate that she doesn't even check in on me to see if im ok anymore (im a self harm kinda girl ) I love her!!! (honestly), I think about her constantly and the thought that she can't even give me a call so see if I'm OK it's hurting so much because I recently had to get rid of a whole bunch of "toxic" "friends" ohhhhh what open eyes can show you! but now I'm terrified of loosing her or pushing her away! my feelings are crazy and all over the place sorry.