hey there t. i had a pretty rough week at work, lots of overtime this month and the stress has been building up and i pretty much lost it yest morning and was sitting in an empty conference room bawling. I wish that could have waited til I got home or at least to my car, but... well... the important thing is I finally LET myself feel it and cried it out and things are better again. Still stressful but I don't feel like my stomach is eating itself anymore. I'm still glad we scheduled an appt in early Feb, I'm going to be ready to talk to you again. And btw I may not tell you this for reals but - dangnabbit - I'm starting to MISS you again like crazy. Bah humbug. I don't wanna love you and I don't wanna miss you and I don't wanna need you. but i do and i do and i do. what are we going to do with me?!