I'm not really suicidal, more like homicidal and then suicidal.

I don't want to go to the loony bin so I never really say anything but like, I am kind of working on the plan I came up with so I fear I might actually do something. But then again, I haven't had the balls to even off myself so I doubt I'd actually do anything with the stuff I collect, you know what I mean?

Also, atm, it is not an emergency because I am stupid and bought the wrong thing. I guess it would be different when the correct item arrives.