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I started Immersion X2 yesterday.

Something interesting happened yesterday... I was watching the thoughts drift by, and to my surprise they turned to a traumatic event in my life. It was as if I was telling my story to someone, the thoughts flowed but I didnt have any negative emotion connected to them. I watched the whole story play out. By the end I realised I was in the foetal position (but that could be due to pain as well). I didnt feel upset by these thoughts as I usually am when I think of this event. It actually felt like I had got things "right" in my mind. I now know I can tell this story without having any negative effect on my emotions, and that to me is a big deal! I couldnt even think about this event for years, let alone share the experience with anyone, and now I feel like I can.

I have no idea if this is directly related to Holosync or if something else has made this change, I know for sure there was nothing that triggered the thoughts as it came out of the blue 15 minutes or so into the meditation. Either way I feel I have moved on a little from this traumatic event and I am continuing to heal myself.

Today I was caught up in the thoughts, I tried many things to clear them away, what I tried may help others so I will write about them -

Sometimes I put the thoughts into a bubble and watch them float across my mind, letting them go when they pass and not bringing them back

Other times I imagine my thoughts evapourating away at the back of my mind, this is particularly helpful for those niggling constant background thoughts. I find it doesnt help me as much with the thoughts at the forefront

Some days I imagine a big vacuum cleaner at the top of my brain, sucking the thoughts out one by one. I watch them rise up and disappear into the vacuum, letting them go.

Today I tried to breathe in through my nose, clear the thoughts in my head and breathe them out of my mouth. It worked a bit, but not as much as I had hoped.

Some days it helps to focus on something. I was told one of my charkras was blocked and I should think of the colour "Yellow" to clear it. So I focus on "yellow" and do not let the other thoughts come in. It feels like they are banging at the door when I do this sometimes but I can usually keep my focus on "Yellow" for quite a while.

Unfortunately today, none of the techniques seemed to work. I am not discouraged though, I am quite certain that the pain from a minor surgery has a lot to do with it. If anyone has any tips on how to meditate with pain I am open to ideas I am willing to give most things a try. I find that without the constant distraction of my thoughts the pain gets worse. I will continue to meditate daily as I also think those couple of days off the holosync meditation affected how well I could relax. I will not be missing a day again!