I've finally come up with a fantasy of what I want to have happen with ex T. I had a dream where she cried out , " I'm sorry!!" In a tortured sobbing voice. But I don't want an apology. That woukd mean she cared, and I don't really want that any more. My fantasy is that you and my lawyer and ex T are in a room . Lawyer starts asking very matter of fact questions . Questions that make her tell what she did in front of people she knows will understand how unethical, self serving and uncaring her actions were. You're only there to answer the lawyer's questions. She asks you to describe my therapy . You tell I protected ex T's secret until I became scared of her. She tells about how I can't remember things, how i can't make decisions and how depression has overtaken my home. Ex T respects you, and is scared of the lawyer. So she answers the wuestions until she can't talk anymore because she is overcome by embarrassment.