I'm not certain what I'd do with it. I feel like I wouldn't really have the "courage" to go through with it. I keep thinking that if I do seek help, I'd just be lying to get attention because I don't have the guts to do it anyway. But then I fear that maybe I would just to prove that I can to myself. It'll take another two weeks though. I was going to start up last weekend but realized that I had the wrong thing... Maybe I bought the wrong thing on purpose?... I just don't know....