Both my grandparents and my dad were telling me off about how I should have talked more to my dad's fiance's daughter and that being tired is just an excuse. My grandparents were supportive when I told them I had depression. And now they're adding onto the weight that life has already put on my shoulders. But no... i cannot blame my family. Being myself is dumb. I have to be more outgoing like my dad. I don't matter anymore. I've got to make this family work because when he gets married, we'd be related by law and family should stick together. Even though I don't want to be a part of it. I'm just being selfish. They'd be better off if I wasn't a part of the family anyway. I feel like doing something stupid that I'd regret later. It's a good job I have the number for the crisis team on my phone.