I was feeling pretty suicidal several weeks ago. Day in, day out. Part of me "knew" I wouldn't take my own life, but I reached the point where I packed up my stuff, went to the ER, and was admitted for almost two weeks.

I didn't have a set plan, just ideas. And I told them why I wouldn't kill myself. They didn't turn me away.

My personal opinion is to go to the ER and be honest. You will probably be admitted. Hopefully it would help. At the very least you wouldn't have to worry about killing people. You might want to research hospitals in your area, see which ones are okay and which ones to avoid.

When it comes down to what you "think" you would or would not do, that is a dangerous place to be. Sometimes we do things we never thought we would.

Please go to the ER or at least speak to a mental health professional.