I just had a weekend of rages. My poor 7 year old daughter just couldn't do anything right. Of course that is not true, I am just confirming my recent DX. I have lost time too in a blind rage, it is almost like it is not me, but some crazy lady. My relationship is also falling apart, but my partner is severely depressed in the midst of my bipolarism. I highly recommend that you tell your pdoc, you don't HAVE to take radical measures, your pdoc is supposed to be working WITH you to find a solution. Just be as honest as you can with her. Help is on the way, and remember, everything is temporary, even the good times. I will be thinking about you through your time of trouble. I have asked others here to please hold my hand when I am in trouble, so you can ask the same. I am here for and you can PM me anytime. Stay hopeful.