I am sorry that life has been so challenging and nobody has been able to figure you out. I am sure if you keep looking, some doctor out there will be patient enough to figure out the pieces of the puzzle. it took years and a lot of patience on my part for pdocs to figure me out and I still don't think we are done yet now that I have started with a new therapist. but I haven't given up hope. each doc gets me a step closer. don't give up. take care