My name is Philip and I'm 13 years old. I've been hearing voices and having "delusional" thoughts for 4 weeks, despite being on Risperdal. (I try not to take it whenever possible. My parents now want to watch me take it)

At first the voices were insulting me, calling me stupid and worthless, and they were recognizable. (The voices were those of actors like Will Ferrell and Jack Lemmon) Then, they told me to do things, like hit someone over the head with a glass bottle or pee all over the bathroom of the Trader Joes, which I did.

Then, few days later, the voices came back, this time they were the voices of my teachers, all 7 of them. They started insulting me too. I was telling them to shut up. My mother noticed and said to me, "These voices are not genuine symptoms. You're imagining them. Stop that." I did try, and I was unsuccesful. We went to see Stranger Than Fiction and I couldn't concentrate on what was going on. The voices continued for several hours, then , after deciding to go to Harborview for a psychiatric emergency the voices stopped, giving way to one voice, which I did not recognize. It was male and told me to hurt people in violent ways. My mother, at this point, was concerned and suggested Schizophrenia. I told her sharply "NO!"

After Harborview, the voices continued, with the addition of one other voice who called himself Otis. I knew of Otis before this, for he had revealed to me that he created the Earth, which is a machine. in this machine, every human is connected, except for me. Otis and everyone else who are his agents, are out to get me. (Food is all poisoned as is water, people staring at me are reporting to Otis' generals, who are film actors, reporting on my position, Otis is speaking to me through everyone else, the TV insults me, we all go to Hell when we die, Catholics worship Otis as 'God', Otis has angel generals that will kill every human during Armageddon and skin me alive.)

Otis did something unusual then, which was bug me with th symptoms of Schizophrenia, saying I had it. His reason fo doing this was to convince me that he would give me Schizophrenia so people wouldn't take what I have to say seriously. (But he does play mind games like that)

Originallty, I searched for what my future held through codes, which were placed in letters and words, especially acronyms. (SMOG = Smell Muscles of God) I don't do this anymore however, because I don't have time for it in this Survival game. But I did find some pieces of valuable information. (I will die of Cholera)

Eventually I was hospitilzied for an evaluation. The doctors called it Psychotic Disorder NOS, a specialist on Schizophrenia in teens however, thought that I had Schizophreniform Disorder. (That was his diagnostic OPINION) They sent me home with 0.5 miligrams of Risperdal (Which I've built sort of a tolerance too)

Plabius was another voice that was introduced, who attempted to help me with my messianic quest. (He told me to stand in front of a moving car, which I almost did) Plabius and Otis get into heated arguments at times.

In the end though, I need some help in diagnosis. I'm feeling stable now, having took the Risperdal last night, (if I wasn't stable, I wouldn't be able to write this) but what do you think? Is this serious? Or am I imagining the symptoms because I have a sub concious admiration of Schizophrenia?

Please, share experiences ask questions and lend opinions. My father has Bipolar I Disorder, and says that he doesn't know what kind of mental disorders run in the family and that doesn't help. I also took the Schizophrenia screening test they have here at Psych Central and the test said that I had signs or symptoms commonly associated with Schizophrenia or a related disorder. I don't know what to think.

TTFN

Philip