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Old Jul 18, 2004, 12:17 PM
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hiya, DE,

thanks for replying...

I am on a mood stabilizer, but a low dose. The pdoc I last saw even said we could up it if I wanted, but I was feeling good that day and didn't want to. Plus I am uninsured and have no assistance, so I want to take as low of a dose as possible until I get insurance again and can afford to see docs and get drugs.

I just moved 1600 miles from my old pdoc, and I'm not sure I'll be here long, so I don't want to try to see out a new one if I'll just be moving in a few weeks (hope hope). I just want to wait this out and look forward to getting a new job, insurance, and finding a new pdoc (one I hope will be just as awesome as my last one, too).

Here's my current cocktail: abilify (7.5 mgs/daily), lamictal (25 mgs/dailiy-- see, that's a low dose), ambien (10 mgs) and xanax (1 mg) both prn to sleep. I've been taking xanax every night for about five nights now, and I know I shouldn't... my pdoc didn't mind, but agreed that my concern about addiction was legitimate and I could just take a few nights off a month (or every third or fourth day or whatever). i think there are times when i might need an AD, but usually they make me manic, so it's tough to say if I need one right now. If I were manic, I'd probably go psychotic at this point. Too much stress.

I felt great before. Such a great difference with these drugs. But one of the things that has changed is my life situation (being unemployed and moving back in with my parents) and it's been a source of all kinds of stress triggers for me. I think once I get out of here, things will settle down again. i just have to make it that long.

Thanks for letting me vent. Just that seems to help a little bit.

((((((((darkeyes))))))))

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