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Jan 25, 2014, 10:41 PM
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Grand Poohbah
Community Liaison
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Member Since: Jan 2011
Location: Surrey, SE London, UK
Posts: 1,628
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Hello and Good Evening. Oh my word, I'm an expert here, on the subject of self hatred, as I think that's what we are talking about. Well, that's how I see it, though maybe 'not loving yourself' is different to 'hating yourself'. Infact I do the two of them very very well. I can't remember a time when I have even liked myself, let alone love myself. I honestly never have, not one bit. I've knowingly HATED myself for around 35 years that's for sure. I remember other kids hating me, calling me names as I was a fat kid. I consider myself ugly too. I have no human in my life who loves me, for sure. My darling doggie loves me, for sure, but she tends to 'love' everyone, and very much shows it! I HAVE been loved, but those two people are gone, they've passed on now, there'll never be any others who will love me. I will die totally unloved, I don't really care. My depression makes me not care, I'm kinda non-extant really, my life is ebbing away slowly and nobody will help. I'm a mess really, a depressive old mess - no hope there, it's gone. HUGZZ and LOVES as ever. XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXx
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