i once had an online "relationship" of sorts with someone in the military. i really liked him and (i thought) he really liked me, too. we made arrangements for him to spend his 3 weeks of leave with me. i looked forward to it for months.

but then when i went to pick him up at the airport and he saw me (head to toe) for the first time, he looked downright... disappointed.

i used to think of myself as positively repulsive to look at. i couldn't look in mirrors, because i was disgusted with myself. it took me years to get over it. and he just brought it all back. in one second.

i hate him for it. but i'm sorry we lost the good part of what we had. even if it was "just" online.