one of the greatest felt losses of my life was the realization that i was no longer my former self, no longer 'normal', no longer OK. i grieved with the help of a good counselor for 3 years. finally i could get past exploring the disfigurement of my self perception, and begin to truly move on to my recovery.
i hope any of you who have not given yourself permission to grieve, if you are truly feeling bereft, will find the support you need to do so ~!
best wishes~
Gus
may the spirit of comfort and care be with you ~