You are not rambling, I am glad your t is helping you with this, which is what you need, its so difficult to guess whether he will take you back or not, that is so anxiety producing, I know that. I am one to want to know an answer right away or at least as soon as possible.

You know its either going to be yes or no, attached to an explanation, and if its no, you will probably be upset, but you have a good t by your side, as far as communication with your ex pdoc, its good to agree to disagree, you learn alot, thats the type of relationship I had with my t, and we both enjoyed debating view points.

I hope these weeks go back fast for you, as I know how it is to want to have answers and have to wait for them, and then speculate whether its the answer you want.
good luck melissa, here for you