Sounds like you have a lot on your mind. Hopefully you'll find the job(s) that will help financially. And hopefully your partner will find his job too. Does he maybe want closeness? Is it possible to explain to him that you have some current concerns that affect your ability to relax completely right now? Is it possible to try to plan for some things that the two of you might like to do together? Will the counselor be willing to meet with you and your partner, to assist with sorting things out?