thanks for the reply's. given me a lot of hope and confidence. though i am worried that something i said in my letter may have scared her off, for it was unprofessional, regardless, i was just being honest. i told her basically, that she meant more to me than just a therapist, that to me she was essentially a human being helping another human being and that meant a lot to me. though i didn't say it like that, i said it in a much more poetic way that might have come off as well... unprofessional and - i hate to use the word again but - 'creepy'. i hope that isn't an "impediment" when it comes to me getting her back.

also, i understand what you people are saying about she cant outright ask me, that i have to ask her, but i did and there wasn't a response. perhaps i just asked her in an indirect way and, i am technically still attending the organization that she left, but since the ordeal i have now developed a serious hate for them and will not be returning. though, she doesn't know that. it sucks that i will now have to pay for therapy, but luckily there is a "sliding scale". ugh, the anxiety is overwhelming, i hope that i can get her back.