I've tried desperately before to tell her about things going on in my head - I've written letters as long as 10 pages both sides, and as short as a few lines, but I have NEVER had the courage to actually give them to her and I really want to, I just get to 10 minutes before the session and I think 'this was a stupid idea, its not going to help, it sounds petty, she'd only laugh if I gave it to her'... I just don't know how to bring myself to give it to her