I've written a letter to my T disclosing some of the things she's asked and not asked me about, in an attempt to make therapy a bit easier in regards to opening up and talking, and hopefully to help her understand.

Now I'm freaking out.
This happens all the time - I'll write something down for my T to read, and then last minute I'll back out and I won't give it to her in the session.
I start thinking things like:

• What is she hates me?
• What if she treats me differently?
• What is she laughs?
• What if she passes it off as nothing?
• What if she suggests another therapist?
• What if she....etc

I really need some help and guidance on this - could somebody please help me?