Sent from my ZTE V768 using Tapatalk 2 I am a 47 year old woman who was married young to a very abusive man for eleven years. The abuse we unlike anything you could ever even see on tv. Broken legs, stabbed seven times, shot at more than i can count, raped repeatedly, emotionally destroyed, threatened with death if i left, and so much more. One of the times he was going to kill me he ended up shooting my best friend and she died along with her husband. This resulted in him getting life on prison plus 45 years. I met and married a wonderful Christian man who passed away after 13 years, one year after the death of both of my children. I swore to never marry again, but did two years ago. He also had lost a child and accepted me kindly with all my baggage. He never hurt me in any way. Then today i was again in one of my major depressed moods so i took a little too much of my meds and fell asleep. When i woke up two hours later my pants were off. He said he did that to massage my legs, but he didn't touch me sexually even though he could have. He doesn't understand, but i feel like i have been raped all over again. All the years of therapy and i am right back where i was all those years ago. I am sorry this is so long, but i feel like i am dying here. He says i am being crazy when i try to talk to him because he would never do that. Can anybody, please, tell me what i can or should do. I am more depressed now then i was before i went to sleep. I would appreciate any suggestions. You can send me private messages since i seem to forget where this is, but need some answers. Going crazy here... HELP!