I am having a hard time. I haven't liked my job for a very long time, and a lot of it is because I feel like it's so much responsibility. I'm 24 and I've been working for about 1 1/2 years. My job pays decently, but I've found that it's super high stress for me because of the type of work.

I consult for an IT firm. What this means is that I'm on the phone with clients every week, running programs that help them make their system better. They're pretty serious about it, because we do the computer systems for hospitals.

I chose this job because I felt I was good at explaining technical concepts to non-technical people. What I've found is that this position isn't a good match for me, because A) I worry about what people think about me, a lot; B) I'm designing the programs myself with very little support from my management; and C) I can't maintain the long hours I'm expected to work. D) would be that I'm not a great consultant, although I'll get better with practice.

The silver lining here is that I may be able to move in to a computer programming role, which would be less time on a phone with clients and more time doing development/query writing. However, the transition if it happens would be very slow. In the meantime, I need to keep doing my current work. The kicker is that my SAD affects my concentration, motivation, and self-esteem. I have some really big client events coming up, and the stress is making me shut down and not be able to do the tasks, which is causing my stress to skyrocket even more. I feel slow and stupid, honestly. :-( Was going to add more of a conclusion but I don't even have the energy all of a sudden...