I know...I will definitely do this when I see her Tuesday. Probably just my old patterns again, because the thing I'm REALLY scared of is her telling me not to reach out to her because reaching out to her outside of session is WRONG. I know logically if she was going to say that she would have already said it, and when I wanted a phone session a few weeks ago between sessions because of something that had really upset me, she was happy to do it and told me that she was really glad she was able to be there for me...so my fear probably isn't all that rational and I know that. But knowing it's irrational doesn't actually do anything to make it go away.