I have SI in the past - about 10 years ago.. I have a very out of control ED.. With SI - I ended up in the hospital a couple of times.

Lately, I am considering going back to SI to see if it will help my ED to lessen. I have to fight to not SI... why bother to fight it?

Maybe if I hurt mysel bad enough and often enough - I could achieve the permenant numbness that would fix it all....
what do you think... my Ed is winning again...

I just want to give up and die most of the time.