Technically its an alternative high school so the people attending are 18 and older. I decided I wanted to finish high school because I value my education. It's the night before school and I have weird emotions and thoughts running through my head. I thought about the commitment I made and I thought about how much I'm gonna miss doing whatever I want to do and not having to stick to any schedule. I thought about saying "**** it" and not go at all. I'm gonna really miss my freedom.......but then again, it would be freedom to do mostly nothing. I have been diagnosed with major depression and agoraphobia and I spent many of my teenage years as a recluse, away from people, and now I'm gonna be surrounded by them. I'm gonna have to communicate and work with them and thinking about that puts me on edge. It's weird, I used to think that I miss having friends but when I think about going back to school I can't picture myself wanting to make friends. I'm so used to being a loner, it's comfortable to me. At times I ran away from my problems, ( like dropping out of high school, leaving a different "alternative" school, and leaving a treatment center I entered early) and I must break this habit. I need to prove to myself that I am smarter and stronger than I was as a recluse.