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Originally Posted by missinformed
I have always taking an emotional tongue lashing from him when he is hurt. He always said that was all he had to hurt me with...was his words. I have been called a ****, a *****, (none of which are true), told by him he wished he could rip my heart out even though he has never raised a hand to me, called worthless and pathetic, fat, you name it. I found out recently he has had a relationship with another woman and I ended it with him. He seems to be manic and I just can't handle it all anymore.
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Oh wow! That's extreme for me & I am OUT THERE at times! They say that "hurting people", HURT PEOPLE but I think there just evil in the world! My manic swings usually have little to do with anyone but me. They usually come when I've had an overload of repressed feelings of self-loathing, hopelessness, worthlessness, dissatisfaction and so on....it's never really "intended" to hurt others, although it does, it's more like a "release" of harmful toxins that were buried in the deepest, darkest recesses of my mind, body & soul. That's the best way I know to describe it. Mania is easier for me to control most of the time. I'm pretty open with my feelings if I have someone willing to listen. If I do, I can "clean out my emotional baggage" and things don't get overwhelming & out of control. I hope this helps you.