I can no longer continue fighting this eating disorder.. It is an entity of it's own and it has won. It has my body and it can keep it. My life revolves around it,,, my body is broken down from it.
My friends and my son don't hear my cries for help - they don't want to acknowledge that I have an illness - that there is anything wrong,,,it's loney in my world, isolated. Sometimes I think I am truely crazy.. cause I am so sick and no one cares. I don't understand. I ask myself if they were sick, would I ignore it? It's like living in an unreal world that is insane.