I finally contacted my T and I am seeing her tomorrow evening. I am so nervous. I don't know why, exactly...but I have a few ideas.

I'm nervous we will feel like strangers, and our relationship will not feel the same anymore.

I'm nervous I will realize it is not what I want anymore...Seeing her, being in therapy, etc.

I'm nervous she is mad at me and will stop caring because I went M.I.A for almost 4 weeks.

I'm nervous I will just break down completely and not be able to "pull it together" the whole session.

I know, everyone...my fears are super irrational. But they are still there...

I have so much anxiety about tomorrow. I don't know what I will talk about or how it will start. I feel like there is so much. I also feel mad at her but miss her and love her all at the same time. I don't know how the heck THAT emotion will come out.