Just wanted to say I can relate. Not sure how long it is since you've seen T but I am also going back to see T this week after a two month break. It was my choice to take the break and I did so very abruptly by sending her an email. I too am filled with anxiety about whether she will be angry or hurt that I just took that break without discussing it, will it be awkward (it's also in her home so that makes me feel awkward too!), will things feel the same, will I get super attached again or will I realise I don't need her? etc etc. I hope for both of us that things go smoothly and we can slot back into things as they were. Good luck!