Hi freewill I'm new to this, but I understand how you are feeling. I have anorexia and I as they say in a crisis. I am also alone. I have no friends or family. I know sometimes it is easier to just give in instead of fighting especially when it feels like know one is there to help. You have to keep fighting this eating disorder, for your son, even though it may seem like he is not haering you. Maybe he is scared and doesn't know what to do to help. Have you tried talking with him about this? Please keep fighting. I know it's easier said then done. Hang in there. Talk to you soon.