I'm so sorry

I think your T did the right thing in recommending a different therapeutic method if she believed something would work better for you, but I think she might have been able to express it differently to you (especially considering your own personal fears/triggers). In any event, I think this would be a good opportunity to find a T that is better equipped to work through your issues with you.

I also suffer from depression and personally have my own fears of being too damaged, so I take great care not too reveal too much to others. I struggle with being completely vulnerable with my T (her approach is psychotherapy, btw) and in the last couple of sessions we talked about the idea that I might have romantic feelings for her. This was an extremely uncomfortable session, but it's proving (I hope) to be an important opportunity to really examine my behavior in relationships.

Hang in there