Your question has given me a lot to think about. I'm not sure I've ever grieved it or not. I know that I am not normal and will never be normal again, even if I have small patches where I feel okay. I lost the me that loved excitement and was ready to go and experience everything. I lost the child like qualities that gave me many happy moments over the simplest things. I think the thoughts of being that person is buried under the depression. I will not see her again. Maybe I do need to grieve the loss. Thanks for bringing up the subject.