Hi, I'm 37 and have bipolar 1 with personality disorders. It's been a lifelong battle and I've never truly known what peace is. My first suicide attempt occurred when I was 11 with other numerous attempts along the years. I was first diagnosed with bipolar at the age of 19. I didn't want to believe it and denied it for years. Life has been a roller coaster and there's no way off the ride. I'm never understood by the people that are in my lives. Even on medication, my life is still in turmoil. I've been on so many different medications and I may get some relief but it only lasts for a short period of time. I'm so tired and feel so alone.