I’m dealing with restoring my excitement and confidence after an incident that shattered my assumptions. This hasn't been the first, and frankly, I do hope it's the last.

I’ll spare the details. After month of preparation I thought I was ready to re-engage. But no, at my approach to the zone of contact between myself and the activity, I got a terrible case of the JITTERS.

So I worked it out:
J – just now
I – intention vs intention (thus the shakes)
T – troubling
T – tiresome
E – emotional recall
R – remove self and no one will get hurt
S – Stuttering actions

To cope I reversed the spelling
S – Small steps
R – Re-engage slowly
E – Even emotions
T – Take my time
T – Take good care

I – Intention singular
J – Just a small step, just a small step.

It seems to be working, so far.