Thanks for the insite. I have often felt rejected in the past, but I also never really knew how to initiate sex in an open, vulnerabl and positive way. Now I do, and things are better. I haven't gone back to my old ways, but I want to from time to time... and I kind of dance around the edges of it without actually doing it. I don't want to even toy with temptation anymore. This behavior has hurt my wife. I want to stop doing this and move ahead in a deeper stronger healthier relationship with her.