Lightbulb. (((Hugs))) remember one day at a time. Maybe you should post your own thread for some positive support. I'm sorry you're feeling this way. In the first month or so everything triggered even what my AA sponsor said.

@Vans when I have panic attacks or have to face a family reunion I need my benzos to work. For that reason I try to only take when needed. They are the fastest pill for me to build a tolerance. I take adderall for adhd but I hate the way it makes me feel when I take too much. And again it'll just build a tolerance. I have ppl all the time trying to buy pills off me pisses me off! Also I know there are ppl in AA who think I have zero sobriety bc of my meds. **** em their not bipolar.

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