Hello again Phil:
I'm going to assume you're still reading, hopefully with one of your parents at your side.

I'd like you to know that other people have been where you are and they got through it. Still, this process that you find yourself in, it can be a heavy burden to bear -- I'm being honest when I say I'm concerned because of your age. I think it's really important that you pull in a good strong support team around you. That team could include your parents, whatever therapist you choose to work with, perhaps some select friends, and lots and lots of knowledge.

Something I've noted before is that I haven't entered into a therapeutic relationship with a professional, but this is slightly misleading because I did lean very heavily on the knowledge of some brilliant psychiatrists and psychologists. Two books I'm going to recommend to you and your support team are:

1. Trials of the Visionary Mind

2. The Stormy Search for the Self

I hope you'll stay in touch Phil, and let us know how things are going for you. I also hope that Otis has backed off and that Plabius is learning to be a better friend to you. In my own experience, those inner voices were an important part of my own process -- everything was a clue that helped me put myself back together again. I would want you to know that I'm not weirded out by the things you've said. It's actually quite familiar to me and not frightening, although some aspects were certainly frightening to me at the time.

Hang in there, Phil.