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Me, too. In high school, I strangely stopped talking to some people I had known since first grade. Didn't even say just "Hi" to them when I saw them. I was painfully aware of this and could not figure it out. Still can't. I was just suddenly extremely shy. I even wrote to Seventeen Magazine about it, how to stop being shy. But I was friends with others that I had known better since first grade or later. I made friends at lunchtime with a gal who had bad dyslexia. She ate alone, too. So odd. My mother told me when I was a kid that I was shy "because I had no kids to play with when I was little." That kind of makes sense, as I didn't, only one neighborhood boy that was much older than me, no others. Social anxiety disorder? Or was it bipolar hitting me when I was in my teens, which is the usual way it comes on us. Still feel the left out feeling sometimes, too. What the heck is this? Is this bipolar disorder or what? I want to understand this after all these years. I do have some good but far away friends, got rid of all the bad ones. I have friends on this website. I get along with and love my neighbors. Anyone have any answers for me?
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