DEAR LORD!! I know how you feel. My "marriage" of 7 1/2 years ended abruptly one day in October and I am still reeling and trying to get my balance. I too was already depressed [but didn't know it] and now the symptoms are extremely evident and often uncontrollable.
I am still trying to figure out what exactly it is I need to do [ie: pray, counseling, meds, etc]. But, I KNOW that I am worth much more than feeling like this all the time. That is about all I know right now. But, I still have to remind myself of that many times throughout my day. I have decided to make it my mission to get well and take care of myself. It is a struggle. It is especially difficult when a part of me feels hopeless and worthless. But, I have to remain my own strength. Just because my once beloved didn't see my value any longer doesn't mean that I have to have that same opinion. Well, that is what I tell myself each day anyway. I guess it is that whole idea behind "fake it 'til you make it." Even if I don't believe it, wholeheartedly, I have to tell myself that each day to keep my head up and keep moving forward. My hope is that one day when I wake up, I will truly BELIEVE it, no longer having to try to convince myself of that. You know?
So, I guess what I am trying to say is, stay strong. PLEASE don't give up on yourself. I KNOW it is hard. But, you ARE worth it. You WILL move past this and you WILL get back to you.
I have hope for you and I have hope for me. Let's hang in there together....okay?