Yeah, I've been there. Even after the guy told me how limited the relationship was going to be, I still thought it would be worth pursuing for whatever it could be. I had so little knowledge of life and of what decent people offer each other. I thought that something that's not too good would be better than nothing at all. I am shocked at how much I have forgotten about this guy over the years, when there was once a time when he seemed utterly captivating.

Looking back, I know I got addicted. As far as me not knowing about addiction . . . you have no idea. I got psychotic at times. I can't even go into examples. It was too sick. Insane is not too strong a word at all.

You might never figure out why you are as you are. You really don't have to. What you've already figured out is enough to tell you what to do and what not to do.