Thank you all so much. It helps just knowing other people get it. I've been trying to write in a journal so I vent while he calms down. I know me chasing him doesn't help but when he leaves I always feel like he's ignoring my needs.

We've had a very rough few months with him out of work and me supporting him, which he hates because he doesn't feel like he's taking care of me. He's a man that wants to work and be the provider and I love him for that but he's not healthy enough to work right now.

We're also as opposite as two people can be, from our childhoods, our religious beliefs, politics- you name it and we don't agree but we want the same things out of live and we want to be together. That and we'll spend 5 hours talking in bed and laughing not wanting to sleep because we're having too much fun hanging out.

We just struggle when we fight and we both hate it.